[O]f the best hour on TV

Man I have not talked about 24 this season at all. But after tonight's episode, one cannot deny that the best hour on television belongs to twenty-four. This season has been really interesting because they have taken a very different approach to the episodes than seasons past. There have been a lot of sublte episodes with the dealings of the dumbass President, a lot of deaths, a lot of set-up. This episode was the kicker. Torture, deaths, betrayals, explosions, sexual harassment, oh my god I think about it and get chills.

I love 24

[O]f reflections

I have learned more about myself in this past week than I ever thought I would or want to know. Living through the rollercoaster of emotions that I was exposed to has given me more to love and want and desire and strive for than ever before. Life is too fucking short to let it sit idly by and come to you. I've had to re-evaluate many things about my life, the things I'm doing, the directions I am headed in, and the people that are important in my life. I still feel raw and shaken about the past week, and my thoughts, desires, and decisions are rather passionate and harsh, but this is the moment, just like in the movies, where the road splits in two, and the main character must make a choice that already has been made for him.

[O]f a life less traveled.

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The next few weeks are going to be interesting affairs and tests in my own personality, character, and soul. Tomorrow I leave to San Francisco, California, a place I have always dreamed of visiting.

I can't wait to drive down Lombardi, jump on a cable car, and take a picture of the Golden Gate Bridge. Ah the Golden Gate... everyone must think I'm crazy, but I'm dying to see it in person. To drive through it and into a Redwood.

The next week might possibly be the biggest risk and adventure I have taken in a while. Uncertainty and nervousness overtake my emotions right now, as I have no idea what to expect from my Spring Break. I could have gone home, but that would have been the easy way out. I need to experience and live and do things I have never done. I might not be in Puerto Rico until Christmas, but I have the opportunities of a lifetime waiting for me in the coming months.

When I return from California, we begin pre-production on 'Sweet Catastrophe' the final film for our Production 2 class. I'll be Director of Photography, and while not my original choice of job, still one I'm supremely excited about undertaking. My experiece as DP will determine what the my next step after college will be. Looking forward to the future, I am contemplating continuing my studies and further developing my skills as either a director or cinematographer. This way I can truly find my calling and move on to a professional setting where I would be truly comfortable working in.

All of this is still more than a year off, and I still need to focus on the new challenges that the time between now and December will bring. I had my two interviews to be a Resident Assistant, and by the end of the month, will know if I was offered a position [and whether or not I'm taking it ;-)] Along with that, being Peer Advising Coordinator for COM next year is going to be quite the challenge, but, proving that I can handle it, I'm very much ready to take on the beast of the new freshman class and twenty new Peer Advisors that will help me usher in the new era of Communicators. I take with me to California and enveloped filled to the brim with 60 or so applications that I need to read over and evaluate before we begin conducting interviews. I have taken upon myself [and two others] to select the best of the best and pick the 20 individuals that are truly exceptional and will be the best welcome wagon to the class of 2010 [yikes!].

Another thing is my blog. On March 8, 2006, my blog will officially be a year old. I'm sad that I won't be around to create a one year post, but this is my way of recognizing it. It's amazing how much in a different place in life I was at this very moment one year ago, and how much has changed since then. The reasons for me being in PR, for creatying this blog, for the need to express myself, to write. I'm glad I stuck to it and did something for myself for once. A lot has risen from this blog, from my writing lists to writing in another journal, to looking at things in a different light. Priorities have shifted, minds have expanded, and my life....well...It has lived...just not enough.

For now I will close my eyes and take another step into the unknown and the future. Let's take another ride, another year.

See you in a week.

[O]f coming and going

Am I unwittingly sabotaging my own happiness and future?
Am I the walking time bomb that I seem to be?
Why does it seem like every action, has the opposite reaction that I seem to look for?


There are many things to look forward to in the coming months. But there are many things that scare me. The summer? A trip to Europe that may materialize...or blow up in my face? California?
And when will I ever be home?

Puerto Rico is not in the cards for at least the next 9 or so months. Which now that I wrote this and actually thought about it, makes me want to cry. I'll be back after tears have been shed. For this and many more razones.